Come to Haunt me

Everyone has those things in your past that you regret right? Well I am good at not thinking about them and blocking them out so I only remember them if I want to. Well today a memory...a few actually...entered my already weak psyche...or however you spell it. I was reading one of my old journals and was reminded of a mistake I made in high school, ninth grade year to be exact. Now at the time I didn't see it as a mistake...well a few days later I did cause I almost got the crap kicked out of me but whatever. But I never thought anything of it. Now I tell 2 people in the whole world everything. But this is something I can't even tell them. I have no clue why I am going off about this...it's just. I haven't found anything up till now in my life that I couldn't tell them. It's not even like...OOBER bad...well it is in my eyes. I can't even believe I did that.........Okay, that's a lie. I know EXACTLY why I did it. But why did it have to come out now? I wanted to read my old journal, but why today? There was so much stuff in there that...I don't believe I wrote. Totally looking back on my life I can't believe I am here today. I don't deserve anything that I have in my life. My friends and my relationships. Nothing I did can make me deserve all of this...

Speaking of being undeserving. Today is the day that Christ sacrificed HIS life for us. We did not and never will deserve what He did for us. WOW! I mean right? He's amazing!!! He was sinless...but He came to earth as a human and went through enormous amounts of torture and died on a Cross for us...US. We were/are sinners and still He died for us. How can you not love Him? I don't get it!!!