For you...

I have this feeling that one of my friends needs some SERIOUS encouraging. I dont even know if they read this blog or care but I am here for you! I know every now and then I get discouraged and there is always someone there that knows I need it. And now I am here for you. On second thought I dont know if it's someone I personally know...but Im still here. Obviously it's someone that may or may not read my blog seeing as I am writing it here...but still. It is so much easier to get through something when you have someone to talk to. And I am here. I always thought I never had a job in life, well my job right now is to listen to you...no giving advice...just listening while you talk about whatever is beating you down. And let me tell you something...YOU WILL BE VICTORIOUS!!! I dont know what it is but you will come out a winner. I promise you that.

Things happen in the country

So, my birthday was pretty much awesome...I had a family dinner where they embarassed the crap out of me but whats new? When I got home that night my father had dropped off my present at the house...A CAR!!!!!!!!!! When I got very excited...I mean you would too right? It's a CAR!!! Then my sister proceeded to tell me that my mother was upset about it so as not to make such a big deal out of. I mean come on! How unfair is that! My father biught me a car and I am suppose to downplay it cause it makes my mother feel bad?

Anyway this past weekend I spent it with my best friend. She met my mother and sister and me at IHOP at like midnight to get...I think she likes me ;) We went back to her house and made an awesome video and then had a guset and stayed up till....5? Yea, so she woke me up with pancakes on Saturday morning and the wisked me away to a surprise. Yes, she actually blindfolded me in the car so I couldnt see where we were going. We get to our destination and it was Aveda. We had facials and manis and pedis...it was pretty much AWESOME! <3 I had so much fun! Then we hung out a bit, went to dinner where she told them it was my bday so they sang to me and we got free ice cream! She did that at IHOP too by the way...not purposly there tho, they overheard. Anyway...We went back to her apartment to get ready for Indy night at Big Daddy's. BEST NIGHT EVER!!! I cant wait to go back!!! We got to bed at abou 2 Sunday morning. We woke up and I got to go back to the BEST CHURCH EVER! Genesischurch.tv. I miss it so much! I cant wait till I get my lisence cause I am returning to my church!

Okay, it's like 2 30 in the morning...I have to be up in like...ugh...4 hours...still havent been to sleep. See, it's fun to be up at this time when I want to be...but I dont! I want to be asleep...so, I have to work again Friday night, then from there I am going to Borders to the Twilight party...Hello Twilight freak party of one! Then I am gonna spend all day Saturday in front of the TV watching it...Yea right! Like I will be lucky to watch it one time with the people living n my house...I dont get this...technically I can move out...and if they keep treatin me like this I will. No joke, I will find someone else to live with...I have already had a couple offers. I just need to figure out the money situmation...eggs-freakin-zachly...this makes no sense...Im gonna quit while Im not...totally lost in my thought...

Amanda Bynes buggs me...it's just like...whats her name????? Melissa Joan Hart...They are too...Giggly or something. I dont get how girls like that can get a guy but girls who actually have a brain connected to their bodies cant. That leads me to my next pt...on an earlier blog I may have mentioned my decision to not date...well I am rethinking it...I will keep you posted as it comes along...

Well, I am off to bed...hopefully...yea, Im gonna go watch Amanda Bynes and imagine throing freach fries at her head...NO pretzels...hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I do what I want.

I am so exhausted I can't sleep...Tonight I found out that my sister, and possibly my mother, are taking me to Stetsons the Friday after my bday. I am pretty excted about that. And then from there I am going to my best friends house for what ever she has planned for my bday. Even though I told her not to get me anything or do anything for my bday...she doesn't listen ;) I am having dinner with my whole family on my bday, with the exception of Brooke who has to work late that day :( Of course it's on my bday when she should be spending it with me...anyway, I am looking forward to it because my whole family will be there and yes I mean my whole family! Dad included...YAY!!!

On a lighter...sillier...sleep-deprived note I heard a saying a couple days ago that I cannot get out of my head no matter how much I try...it goes something like this "Mess this up again and I will buy a hamster and set it loose in your pants." How amazing is that line? I want to be in on a plan with someone so I can use the line, or I can just use it in random conversations and confuse the crap out of people, which I do alot anyway...but seriously...imagine setting a hamster loose in someone's pants. How funny would they look trying to get it out...Like in sweatpants of someting so they are tight at the top and around the ankles so it would be almost impossible for the thing to get out. Then imagine them running down the street trying to rip their pants off...HAHAHA!!! Arrested for indecent exposure....Speaking of...I got a text that said if you saw me in the back of a police cruiser what would you think I got arrested for...you know what most people said about me? Prostitution...am I atleast a high class prostitue or am I like Julia Roberts in Pretty Woman? Oh my gosh if I am like Julia Roberts dont tell me!!!

I am going on and on about nothing in paticular...none of this prolly makes any sense...I am just hoping I dont wake up my nephew...why would you put the computer next to the baby's room? Seriously? The key board is really loud...When he is asleep no one can use it...except me cause I dont care if he wakes up cause I am not the mother...Yes, contrary to what people believe I am not the mother! I am the Aunt and should not have to take on the responsibilities of a mother at 17..almost18 years old if it is not my child...which it is not....

I realize I am a minor...for 4 more days, but do I really have to listen to everyone else's take on my life...every person in my family is telling me what THEY think I should do...drop the day job and go to college...keep the day job for 2 more years then see where you're at...BLAHBLAHBLAH!!!! I can make my own decisions thank you very much! I am not even sure if I want to go to college...I mean I dropped out of high school whats to say I wont do the same thing in college? I wasnt made for high school...maybe not college either...but then there is the argument that I will never get a good job without a degree and I will not meet the right kind of guys if I dont have a good job...Well answer to the latter one...Im not dating! Answer to the first...IDK! I can make my own decisions and I am not saying they will always be right but I will make them for myself...No one is going to affect my decision making...other than God of course...but no one else...It's my life and it's time I started living it for me!!!

YAY for me!!

So, I have been reading a new book that I got at Lifeway last weeken called "Set-Apart Femininity"...It is an awesome book so far that I have really learned alot from. I have come to the decision that I am not going to date. The decision is helped along that I never get asked out and there are no guys intrested in me...but none the less this is my decision. I am a little nervous about where it is going to lead me and the people that I am going to encounter that think I am insane but I am ready to handle it all. I have not told anyone but my best friend about the decision...but she is behind me 100%. With her and God behind me I can do anything...including this. I dont think this is going to be oober difficult...atleast I hope not. I have a bad habit of ditching things once they become to hard. But I am excited to say that this Saturday is 11 months off of a bad habit. Thats one thing I didnt quit when it became to hard...which it is REALLY hard right now but I think that is because I am doing so good at it. To anyone who has ever tried to quit anything but just got sucked back into it I would just like to say it is a WHOLE lot easier when you have someone there fighting the fight along side you...