My Best Friend

This is just a shout out to my best friend in the world. I love you soooo much! You are the best person any one could hope to know. I can't imagine where I would be without you. I love knowing that you are always there for me and ready to catch me if I fall, which is alot. I have never been this close to anyone in my life, but I know God put me here so that I could meet you. <3<3<3 I dont really have anything else to say other than I love you sooo much!!!!

POSITIVE

Positive Positive Positive!!!
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Way to go!

So, there are a few birthdays in a persons life that should be celebrated right? I mean like REALLY celebrated. I thought your 18th should be one of those but there are some people that only want to make you miserable and not have fun. I had plenty of ideas of what I wanted to do but no, she had to shoot down every one of them. Now she is telling me that I cant do what I have been planning on doing for months. She's SOOOOOOO pissing me off! I can't take it anymore. She loves to make me mad. "OOO Jeana wants to do this? Well, let's not let her becasue I'm a B**** AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Valentines Day sucks!

What is the point? Seriously? I know it's not a holiday made up by the greeting card comapnies to sell make more money and that it is actually in history but it marks a MASSACRE! I guess murder is the ultimate crime of passion and everyone associates passion with love. CRAP!!! I hate this holiday so much and it is not helping much with my pessimism, cynisim or my depression. Everyone says that I will feel diffrently when I have a boyfriend but I can assure you I wont. I have had the best guy friends in the world and they gave me flowers and such and it never made a diffrence to me. My boyfriend and my husband are gonna b e the luckiest guy in the world because they will never have to remeber Valentines day. But with my luck I am gonna fall for a guy who loves the holiday. That is if I ever find the right guy...See? This time of year makes me so beyond depressed it takes me a while to get out of it. AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! I CANT WAIT UNTIL ALL THIS EFFING CRAP IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!

Deep Poetic Canine

So I have come to a decision I am gonna change my life. For the past 17 years I have been very pessimistic and cynical. I have made a decision to not be anymore. I have been making some serious changes in my life lately and since I am changing a few things I thought I would change more. This is my 2009 challenge to myself.

Best Weekend EVER!

This was an awesome weekend! First off I got to hang out with my best friend Friday night and Saturday morning. We went to First Friday, which I have never been to before. I saw alot of people that I could have gone without seeing for the rest of my life but aside from that it was cool. Then I met some really cool people that I would totally love to hang out with. Then we went back to her place with another friend and rented Get Smart. TOTALLY worth it. It was one of the funniest movies I have ever seen...but parents beware, it is kinda raunchy!!! But amazing! We fell asleep around 2 30ish. But we got to sleep in which I never get to do! Being woken up by the sun rather than a screaming nephew or an annoying family member is amazing. Soemthing I never thought I would experience again. At lunch that day my mother called me and told me that if I wanted to I could find someone to spend the night with and go to my church in the morning. The church we are no longer attending because they moved...W/E!!! I was so excited!!! I got to surprise my other best friend by telling her that I got to go home with her. She was so excited! I love suprising people.
Church this morning was AMAZING! I know God was behind me going there today becuase it was exactly what I needed to hear in my place. PB is awesome! He really knows how to stick someone in their place if you know what I mean. There is no one like him! <3
Also at church this morning I loved seeing the surprised looks on everyones face because I was there. I felt loved also because they were all telling me that they were glad I was there. This is my home. And I also got the satisfaction of seeing...someone's...eyes almost pop out of their head because of what I was wearing. I never wear dresses or flats. Its always jeans, shirts and flip flops or tennis shoes. This was another surprise for everyone. But I especially liked this reaction oout of this person. It was very...satisfying. Thats the only thin that could have made this weekend better...this person.

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1st no Tuesday.

This is my first Tuesday EVER that I am missing Diverge for another reason other than I am sick. There is nothing wrong with me BUT I'm not there. I dont really know how exactly I feel about that. Im sad because I am gonna miss everyone SO much, but in another sense, I dont feel like I belong there anymore. Some people have expressed the opinion that it had to do with someone in paticular and in truth it does...Me. Everyone there is great and they invest so much time in the teenagers of Diverge but I feel like I am being pulled in a diffrent direction then Diverge and teenagers. I love my two best friends for supporting me in this decision. They completely understand and then I found out that they are feeling the same way! God does work in mysterious ways. A year ago I would have told you I was never leaving Diverge and that I was going to go to Lee university and become a youth pastor. Now, I cant even imagine doing that with my life. it's like one night God said "Sike!!!" Now I am lost. Wondering around trying to figure out what to do with my life.

Well, on a slightly less...On a diffrent note. I am going to get my learners permit tomorrow. I know I know...Im almost 18 years old but look, I cant get my licence until I get a car. And that is gonna be a while. So, I figure I might as well get some practice in before I start driving on my own.

This is another boring blog from the mind of me...WOOHOO!!!!!!

First

Well.....This is just another thing I can add on to my list of things I do when I am bored. And this is a boring post.

I <3 Jenny Davis!!!